Moving You

His cheeks were reddened and his hair unkempt
As he explained, I would be discarded
He didn't say that: it was what he meant
Although he used 'amicably parted'

I looked at him calmly, squeezing the rope
I'd wound tighly over my emotions
"We have to look at the whole breadth and scope"
He must have said, though I've now no notion

I didn't care that I would be transferred
They'd used my talents and tossed me away
What stung my chest was that he had answered...
He never loved me, not even that day...

So I pretended it was all just fine
His heart remained beating, but me? Not mine.

Conversation

You say you don't like the work that I've done
And you're upset by the mistakes I've made
I pretend to hear you...try not to run
'I explained it all so why have you strayed?'

As I listen I hear something explode
The fear is brimming, longing to stream out
I grasp for breathe as my courage erodes
'I wont surive this' I think and don't doubt

You'll never love me, in your eyes I'm just
The stupid girl who said to everyone
That she loved you so, and now you don't trust...
My chest is screaming flee! But you're still not done

And so I sit and with blackened heart hear
Your cruel eyes burrowing into my fear

No Not Good Enough

Red coldness in your eyes stings me silent
What would come from my lips tries now to drip
I pull and pull back, it will not relent
I squeeze my fingers and brace for it to slip

"Nothing nothing you mean so much nothing"
I hear you screaming although you're saying
I made dumb mistakes and now it's failing
My heart is stabbed and slows as its graying

You don't want to stop, you're dissatisfied
My chest is trembling, tears are shaking
but dont fall! You'd despise me if I cried
Bloodless lips smile, vacantly faking

At last you are done and I'm free to leave
I would say goodbye, but I cannot breathe