What He Thinks

Beyond your reach beyond even your thoughts
Sits someone who looks like me, just like her
You once wanted her, or have you forgot?
Of course you were right there's no future

Her eyes are so brilliant sometimes although
You've an inkling, how darkness spills out
But the despair, the despair, oh the despair is so
Trails her around, above like a cloud

You’ve never seen her prostrate on the floor
While you were a boy, a boy that's so proud
She stared at the sky, the god she cant implore
Choked on her voice, death rattled aloud

You don’t know her and she doesn’t know you
But unlike her you’d turn away if you knew

We Just Won't Speak It

The glittering in his eyes was veiled yet
The pressure of the air warned me it was there
I told myself look away and don't let
Him know that you see it, him know that you care

Stumbles of silence while endeavouring
To think of something neutral that still meant
More than that around us, all the nothing
On my chest the silence wouldn’t relent

The ghosts of thoughts, of feelings once half felt
Tell me I'm doing wrong, something dark
But the pressure eased through me as I knelt
We were touching with out bodies apart

The night whispered tales of coalescence
But I hid, frightened so by their essence

Next Page

Of all the faces around, none are mine
Like a ghost I haunt your mind's corridors
Not knowing who I am, you'd know me blind
But you, you don't even recall before

My hair swept back, you are looking at me
And from my eyes I'm screaming that I care
You don't need them, no, you need my body
You see the form, don't see what I can't bear

So I walk away, walk away downcast
But do it as though it all means nothing
You see me go and oh it comes so fast
you need me now! you want more than a fling!

I've read the next page in our short story
It's only me who cares, you can't worry

A Long Time Coming

I know you, knew that you would come for me
And I knew that I would bow down my pride
And let you kiss me while I laughed sweetly
It's as though it was never to decide

'Meet me outside in 58 seconds'
I knew it would take you longer than that
And that I would do just as you beckoned
My only concern was if I looked fat

Your body on mine, of course wanting more
But I'd planned just where I'd set limit
See, what I'd wanted was you to adore...
And so I could not, I could not submit..

So neither of us got what we had sought
What we could have, is less than what we're not

I Think It Still Hurts

They say once your heart cracks it will never
Beat the way it once beat, never un-crack...
And then the jagged line will forever
Be something you can't fill yet cannot lack

But what if your heart...well what if he cut
It as he stood before you with his face
Aligned so that he couldn't see it but
From our of your eyes he smelled the disgrace

What if the knife, he twisted and twisted
So sweat glistened on your skin and its tip
And he gripped it there tight until his wrist
Sweaty and tired it started to slip

As you fell to your knees and the flame faded
He leered at your chest, red and deflated

The Old Woman's Warning

„I sit and I think about all I was
What I have been and what I'll never be
I'd run back in time but only because
I fear I've felt much but maybe...vainly“

Her face as she spoke, showed signs of sorrow
The voice in her eyes told me of regret
Too late now, no more chances to borrow
A moment from time, no not once its set

I asked her then what she hoped for at night.
„I could dream for ten years but never see
his face again, it's been lost in the mist
That mist of time. But you'll see...yes you'll see"

A shudder went through me as I realized
That I one day too, might look from such eyes